Blogging......

I really wanted to write a kind of recap blog today, as I noticed that its been just over 2 months now since I decided to create this account and begin blogging, and because of this a question formed which I thought I'd try to answer. That question being; Has blogging helped or affected me in anyway? The short answer being yes it definitely has affected me and it has helped.

Since April I have blogged at least once every week without fail, whether they've been blogs about random events in the news, to feelings I've had during that day,  and I've blogged not because of some schedule or goal, but just because I wanted to. When I created this account, it was never about other people reading what I write or blogging about interesting things in an attempt to again get people reading, it was because I wanted to have a space that was my own where I could put my words. I've always been the kind of person who listens to other peoples problems in an attempt to help them, but keep my own hidden away, by having this 'outlet' for a better word though, it has allowed me to get thoughts and feelings off of my chest and put them out there, because as people always say, its not good to keep things bottled up.

Blogging has helped because for me, it has become a place where I am able to say whatever i want to say, and can access at anytime, its also become a place where my words are added into the hugeness of the internet and become part of something. However at the same time, it is a place that I can keep as my own, a small microscopic section, in the vastness that is the web, and because of this, it allows me to choose who out of the people I know see it.

From my first few blogs especially and other blogs up until now, you'll be able to see that since September 2010, the life's of my family and me, and even of close friends of mine have changed dramatically. Within my families life recently we've all hard to go through certain changes, which as a result has put me in a position of strength and help for my mum and my younger siblings. In any financial situations especially that have occurred since last September, or big decisions, my mum has wanted to include me and get my opinion. Because of how i feel my younger brother and sister see me now, because of how I know my mum sees me now, and because of how I am, I have tried to keep up an appearance, to show them that things will be fine. This however is not as easy at it seems, and this is where blogging comes in. Writing my thoughts and feelings down in these blogs lets me express how I feel, without actually talking to anyone around me, and so they don't need to see that things arn't as fine as they seem, so I can keep being strong for them and continue to help.

Blogging has affected me in the main way, that I now just begin to blog when I have something I want to say or if I have some random thought and want to talk about it. Blogging has become quite a natural thing now, I still feel I just write how I speak and how things come into my head, again making it a natural thing. With the help of my phone, I am able to at anytime and any place, write up a blog as soon as thoughts or feelings occur and email it through to be posted.

One of the best things I feel that has come out of discovering blogging myself, is knowing that several friends of mine have begun to blog too. Why they have started blogging, and what they hope to archive through it is up to them, but hopefully they will find it as useful and helpful as I have. Discovering blogging has been an awesome thing, and I'd definitely recommend to anyone to give it a go.